Can you remember a time where you had plans and they cancelled. Whether it be work, clients, friends, family. You were disappointed, maybe even a little hurt, taking it personal, not sure what to do next with this new opening in your schedule. The day comes, and you have a moment where you are like, even though it really sucked that my plans changed, I am actually REALLY #thankful because I got to do _____ today, for myself, and I wouldn't have been able to do this if I wasn't cancelled on..
REMEMBER THESE MOMENTS, when your life starts to change from a life that wasn't inspiring to a life that is.. Change has to happen in order for your #passions, #purpose, #dreams, #desires to come in. YOU CAN'T BE THE SAME PERSON YOU WERE BEFORE.
So, when you find yourself in fear, anxiety, anger, frustration, disappointment when your plans change.. remember and repeat to yourself.. THIS IS FOR THE BETTER, I'VE BEEN HERE BEFORE, I CAN ACKNOWLEDGE THE EMOTION I AM FEELING RIGHT NOW, AND I'M GOING TO CHOOSE TO REMEMBER WHAT IT IS THAT I REALLY WANT. WHAT CAN I DO WITH THIS NEW TIME THAT WILL BRING ME THAT MUCH CLOSER TO THE PASSIONATE LIFE I WANT TO LIVE, RIGHT NOW?
Is it move your body with a small workout, dancing in your living room, going for a walk, meditating, painting, getting a massage, get your nails done, F***k go freaking shopping and get yourself something that contributes to passion you.. tend to your garden, spend intimate time with yourself alone, intimate time with your friends, family, partner.. passion and purpose is limitless, WHAT DOES LIVING A PASSION FILLED LIFE MEAN TO YOU?
I'm sitting here, taking in this reminder, because I was originally booked for today and tomorrow, it got cancelled Monday, and at first I was like damn this sucks.. that's money i'm not getting, other jobs I could have taken.. i'm feeling shi**y. After feeling the feels and tapping, I realized, this can be a blessing if I let it.. What can I do on these days to FEED ME AND MY SOUL.
Side note: My dream last night there was a woman singing to me while I was feeling anxious and unsure, and she sang to me, "Goddess knows, she knows what she is doing. Let her work, Goddess knows."
I easily take things so personally, even the littlest of changes, "i'm not good enough, they don't like me, i'm failing." But there's so much power in shifting these thoughts and internal conversation to being curious and asking myself, WHAT IF THIS CHANGE IS HAPPENING FOR ME?
This "change" in my schedule seemed like such a bummer, and really I think I feared the idea of losing the money.. but so far, because of this change, i've been able to sleep in, have a very light body movement, and work towards my passion and purpose, write out my thoughts at my new desk while my cat sits in my lap, and planning to go in the garden next..
I'M HERE TO TELL YOU, EVEN THOUGH CHANGE CAN SUCK, PLAY WITH THE IDEA OF WHAT IF THIS CHANGE IS HAPPENING FOR ME? WHAT IF THIS CHANGE IS TO GET ME THAT MUCH CLOSER TO MY DREAMS, A PASSION FILLED LIFE, AND A LIFE WHERE I FEEL PURPOSEFUL.
Remember, YOU AREN'T ALONE. You can change your story and you can choose to see your reality as either working for you.. or working against you.